Eye got it!

As a parent I try with diligence to prepare for all scenarios. I try to anticipate the moods and movements of my children, to protect and train them for situations that may arise. Even though I know this is a charade, I still convince myself I’ve got it covered… until God reminds me of how little control I actually have. Who would have thought with something as innocent as two little girls reaching for a crayon at the same time could lead to near disaster? Did I mention both girls had clipboards in their hands? Without hesitation both my daughter and a new friend reached for that crayon, but in order to reach it, this little girl moved her clipboard in Morgan’s direction right as my daughter’s head was going down. Screaming commenced in seconds. As I was calming Morgan down, her new little friend was balled up in the next chair, terrified. I assured her and Morgan everything was OK, and that it was just an accident. As I pulled Morgan’s hands away from her eyes, a sick feeling permeated my entire core. She had blood dripping from her right eye. Not wanting to cause any additional panic, I quickly and calmly took my baby girl to the bathroom. From what I could tell at that point, she had a cut on the lower right corner of her eye lid. Her eye was blood shot, so I had no idea if the actual eye ball had damage too. Thankfully it missed her eye completely, and only cut the lid. Seeing how close the cut is to her eye speaks volumes. This could have been so much worse. I never saw this coming, and feel absolutely horrible that it did happen with me sitting right next to her. Morgan is doing OK. The cut still hurts a bit, but she’s a trooper. I am so thankful to God for sparing her eye. I pray I can let go of the guilt and the need to feel in control.